Monday, April 17, 2006
It's the first day back to school again! i had this totally renewed feeling when i stepped into school. For the first time, it actually felt like a polytechnic! Anyways, i've moved into my new house at Jurong East alr and there's no internet connection as of yet and i'm actually tapping onto my neighbor's wireless =x so i'm just gonna make this real quick yeah?
school was alright for me, pretty fun actually; i saw lotsa friends, secondary school ones and i'm just happy they're here as well! And, everything was fine until 3rd meeting, that was when i screwed up real bad. =/ that's all i'm saying man.I screwed up. I know I'm not like that, I don't screw up at that time of the day; I don't and I won't. But somehow, I did today.
I went up there with no confidence, like an amateur I tried to think of what I could do to fix that situation; but I only confused myself and made things worse. i think me knowing the fact that everyone that's in the room is doing the same stuff and that they are probably much better than I am, stresses me out.
Back then I used to enjoy Culture, Communications and such. Because they're Media modules and now when I'm finally doing what I enjoy doing, it's ironic to say; I'm not really enjoying things because I’m too tensed up.
I need to loosen up and relax.And I don't know why; I can't seem to do it.
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